The Ah ha moment….

The moment when everything starts making sense. I had that moment tonight. I had a great conversation with three powerful woman and I left feeling empowered. Empowered because they felt safe enough to share their stories with me and that’s a privilege to be a part of. You cannot just make space and take this information, you have to honor it and honor them. It’s hard to explain how it feels. My hands became shaky and my breath was shallow right before I saw the light haha….
It was a combination of:

ANGER: The fact that you didn’t realize your purpose sooner really pisses you off. I mean what a time saver that would have been.
Should’ve…could’ve…would’ve!!! I’m happy now!

RELIEF: Once the anger subsides and you start breathing again–OH MAN!!! It felt so good.  Your eyes are finally wide open.  Life becomes appealing again and you can finally say you are WOKE!
Enlightenment!!! The awakening!!! “I can see clearly now the rain is gone…” (Johnny Nash) LOL

I hope this never ends, I’m committed to be a student for life and be willing to listen, empower others, and speak up. 

NO MORE…
…holding back.
…feeling like I am not enough.
…avoiding plans just to make sure I’m available.
…allowing others to define my importance.
…NO MORE being in a place the makes me feel like I’m not good enough or where I feel invisible.
TIME TO SAY…
…I’m important.
…I’m a good person and those who are worth keeping in my life will value who I am.
…it’s okay to be alone.
…it’s okay to be scared.

…it’s okay to slip up as long as you get back up and try again.
…it’s never too late to learn how to live a better life.

 

Photo by: Steph.Ftz

I decided to be kind…Why?

I am kind because…

I got tired of waiting for the world to be kind to me.

I decided, enough is enough!

Through my journey of self-love, I began to show up and be the person I would want to be around.

I decided to be patient and meet people where they are, not where the world thinks they should be.

I decided to get to know others, by being authentic, honest, and consistent; while also respecting boundaries.

I decided to listen actively because I know not only the loudest have something to say.

I decided to empower those who have lived in the shadows because I am just now coming into my light.

I decided to celebrate diversity and surround myself with those I may share something with, but with who I bond over our differences.

I decided that even though I have been hurt, I don’t want to hurt others.

I decided being alone is not because I’m unlovable…

Being alone is a transition, a time to heal, a time to find my voice, a time to find what I love about ME and accept what I don’t love about ME.

I decided I want to be that safe space I was looking for.

A place where I can be authentically Stephany and know I won’t be judged, hurt, humiliated…

I am all of my identities and that is beautiful!

Some of my identities: a woman, Afro-Latinx, Caribbean, Indigenous, Spanish, queer, empath, gentle, tough, feminist, spiritual, daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, friend, co-worker, colleague, future mother, future partner in life…etc.

I Call Her “Kind Eyes”