Sometimes we forget everyone is different and not everyone is going to connect with you how you imagine.
In my overeagerness to build community and to find my tribe, I may have burned a bridge or two. Inadvertently, I failed to see boundaries , red flags, and I ignored my instincts.
This is the complexity of my journey to heal from trauma, negative experiences, unlearn and relearn healthier coping mechanism and behaviors etc.
I have learned that isolating when going through difficult times is not healthy and I have also learned that you can’t expect more than what people are willing to give. I want to learn how to meet people where they are…
I have learned that I can trust my instincts again because every time I have ignored them, I got burned…
I have learned that my view of community, collaboration, friendship is my own and it may differ from others.
I have learned to forgive myself when I make mistakes because I am human and I come from a loving place.
I have learned that I can leave my door open, but I can’t expect anyone to walk through it and that’s ok.
I know my journey to live a healthier life, surrounded by amazing individuals is worth the fight…no turning back to that dark place of solitude I used to call home.